Kung tayo, tayo talaga.

Minsan naiisip ko, ano kaya kung di nangyari lahat nang nangyari? Ano kaya ang naging ending natin? What if we didn’t have to part at all?

Tuwing naiisip kita, naiisip ko tayo noon, and then it makes me want to cry. Una, because the love I feel for you is so overwhelming. So strong. Pangalawa, dahil ayaw ko na maramdaman yun, kasi nahihirapan nako.

I have been selfish enough when I did all the hurtful things that I did that weakened our relationship. I have forsaken you…. and us.

Now, I have come back to redeem myself not because my ego needed it but because all through out the years *that was fuck’n half a decade*, I have continued to love you.

Baka umiiral na naman yung pagiging maramot ko; kasi what if you didn’t feel the same way anymore, what if I am already too late?

Pero sabi nga nila, masusuway mo lahat ng no sweat except ang puso mo. Kaya ayun, uwi pa rin ako just to see what’s waiting back home for me.

The things that are happening right now, nakakagulo ng isipan. Yung balakid sa ting dalawa bigla bigla nalang ineliminate ni Tadhana. Lahat ng bagay nagfa-fall into place without us even trying. I mean if we aren’t meant to be, then why does life continue to fascinate me by bringing us closer together even if we try to resist. Kahit pa nga, baka hindi na ako ang mahal mo.

Lintik na yan, kaya din ako di maka-let go eh. Kasi sobrang daming signs na dapat ata tayo pa ring dalawa..

In all fairness, I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I am hurting, yes pero I don't know why I still want to stay even if I was. Love nga naman, and all the things that it makes you do. 

In times of trouble, I would usually say “Bahala na si Batman”, but then I thought maybe pagod na si Batman kakasagip sakin so I shall go with “Que sera sera”, which means “Whatever will be, will be”.

Kung tayo, tayo talaga.